Up to this point since my graduation from Massage Therapy school last year i have been struggling and going through initiations and regularly getting my ass kicked while feeling like i'm living in the Hanged Man. It's in the last few days that i feel things are starting to shift and i feel as if i can now push forward with growing my finances and eventually move out of my Mother's house. There is some kind of Astrological kink that's been kicking my ass for awhile....and i'm now have the feeling that things are de-intensifying and i can focus on other things besides frying my consciousness and energy body with cultivation.
Dissolving work with the Runes and Spirits has been intense beyond belief. Most days i'll need to sleep just to recover from the detoxification. At the same time the Gnosis has been amazing, i feel now i am moving into a slower paced more watery phase of cultivation. New connections with Hekate i feel are coming up and around the corner. It's because of this transition that i've had so little energy to blog....every pathway except the one of frying my brains with Gnosis seems like it was closed of to me. I stopped trading options (paper money), had difficulty reading without burning up, and couldn't work more than what was necessary just to make ends meet.....FRUSTRATING for sure!
I feel as though i'm finally opening up to Yin energies and can appreciate the soothing, relaxing and playful energy that women give off. It's like energetic candy for me. The social scene has become quite easy for me to navigate without feeling out of place. Meet some cool new practitioners whom i'm having a lot of fun playing with (London Brown and Ian).
Sex magic and Karezza has been an in-depth study that i've been doing. I have all the knowledge i need now, just lacking a proper Yin for my Yang. The amount of dissolving of blockages around relationships, women, sex and love boggles my mind. Yet it's all been worthwhile, i have more power in this area of my life than ever before.
Fire sex with lots of movement and slapping ultimately causes ejacualation....it's inevitable when you building that much energy and friction in your loins that it will occur. But Yin lovemaking such as Karezza where there isn't much movement and your able to completely connected to your partners polarity does not tempt ejaculation.
Sexual energy as a earthy and wild survivalist force needs divine celestial influences in order to guide it to it's full potential. Thus opening up to Perfect Unconditional Love is a powerful way to help smooth out the surge of sexual energy in the body. Dedicating sex to Love is a way to attune it to a balanced celestial force.
Guru De Bordes came by Miami for a Silat Workshop. As always it was a blast and i learned a great deal. Lessons:
2. Tradition vs reality
4. Practice moving from Kuda to Kuda 28x28
Watching this girls videos, there quite good and she is definitely skilled in her field. More importantly i and finding her energy quite soothing. Currently trying to join her book club on Facebook. I started reading the first book Gaia Codex. A good deal of gnosis lies in it's pages and the feminine energy of the book is so contrasting to what i have previously read. Usually all the books i read are masculine and very direct. It's a beautiful change of pace for me and reflects powerful internal changes happening in me.